wants:
-new handpone
-keyboard
-coloured contact lenses
-groom myself
-spend quality of time with him after N
-more dress
-shoes
-acoustic guitar
-become a better me
-repent
-buy acube stng at the E.O.Y
-organise party
-movie marathon
-lower than 10 points
-O and N level certificate
-NAFA


today..nthg much happen..but i did have nightmares..which woke me up at 12 noon..that dream seems to be real.im afraid if dejavu happen..im freaking out aite now!!

i bathed and later on continue to finish up my art..more art..slack..art...slack more..art almost done..almost..but save it for tmr...at 6.05 watch fairy odd parents..and camp rock again..after that i had my meals..watch my school rocks..then sneak preview of HSM3..ouhk..it is a must watch movie..24 oct!!cinema here i come!!can't wait..

ouhk..parents working..i ate dinner with siblings..they are so idiotic..then here i am blogging..well after this im really gonna study smartly..hope my Ns will turn out smoothly..God..don't make me anxious please..

till here readers..

p.s:i bought more cosmetic..it cost mama over 200..really sorry..well im your only daughter..


ouhk..went to mendaki as usual.attendance was poor.but last week everybody turned up except mua..maeb im a jinx..it could be..we had 3 hours of maths..dhiah and i were quiet fast so we finished up and we had our conversation..(dhiah you noe i noe :D) it was quiet a story..hee:]..

after mendaki,i went back but it was only 12.30pm..too early to meet azmi..went back straight from tamp inter..which took me at least an hour to reach home..bla3

reached home..went straight to bed and had my afternoon nap :p..sleep..dream..sleep.dream..till 3.15..suddenly azmi was already infront of me:)i thought it was my dream..he fetch me then went straight to geylang..the weather was so unbearable so i wore only singlet and skirt..with sandals..while waiting to cross the road..i can smell the heat and the sun was just above me:).and i got sun-tanned..bla3

i bought loads of things..if azri were there im sure i will be forbidden to buy unimportant things..the money i spent took me 3 weeks to collect but 1 day to finish it up..why ain why??when i think back..its true im wasting my god damn money!!

things i bought:
shoe(got plenty of shoe)
kebaya(must buy)
waterproof eyeliner(i already have two)
compact powder(i have more than 2 less than 10)
facial wash(a lot)
tights(i don't wear it regularly)
pants(must buy)
berry-licious(too delicious and must grab it)
sun dress(look attractive so must buy)

what a waste!!well there's always a next time..later at nite..me and mama headed to geylang again-_-"..due to some jams around that area..we decided to walk from ubi to geylang..it was tiring but fun..it was more chaotic at nite.people there were squash like sardines..heeh..

but overall i enjoy todays outing wif mimi and mama..(mimi mama get it?)suberbly fun..nvm azri..after our N theres gonna be a party..whoohoo!!

till here readers...

p.s:kissing is forbidden during ramadan..wait till raya..kiss all you want..:Omuacks!


well today school was a bore but jane and syiq save my day with laughter..both of them are really into jokes..and will laugh anytime..:)they were talking abt insanity and being bias!well silly them..but i was cool with it..laugh along with them :)



1st and 2nd period are math:(so some were under stress doing it...but i read through geography instead till it was geo lesson..had a short test(map reading)it was on average.but i manage to complete it..



look at the tyme..it was 10.45(recess time)..yay for the non fasting students:D..fasting students as per normal stay in class slacked or visit the 4n1 students..



i went next door with syiq to look at what they are doing..i was looking at azri..but obviously he was doing math..i don't have the guts to approach him..but when syiq stand infront of him i move next to her staring indirectly infront him.he was asking harrfian abt math..but he didn't know..i noe the next thing was..to ask me for help..can't tolerate the noise in his class..went back to my class to teach him instead.



after few minutes of being a math teacher..he already understand..thats the spirit!!he put down his pen and question me abt my absence in school..i told him from A to Z..he was quiet piss with that bitch..he told me she was an irritant!(im glad you knew)



i told him that i wanna leave him for good..but his reply was..how about our friendship?..i was like what?so he did care about ACUBE after all but just being to0 ego to show his concern..before he went back to class..he told me theres bad news waiting for me..

silent at a moment..then i said is it critical?he said yeah!!gosh he really frighten me:I..with a promise to tell after his prayers..

waited for him at the library..with mimi..after hours of waiting..his figure suddenly appear..well..he look worried.. the only thing in my mind was...[don't tell me you can't make it tmr]and than it did..

azri said "im sorry i can't go.im really2 sorry its my fault.jangan sedih uh"
i didn't say anything and i pretend i was mute.
after seconds than i replied..i told you to listen to me!!stubborn!why azri why!not once tau!!
azri"sorry uh!!
quarrel for few minutes..
than i cool myself down..
azri is to0 much:P
i was ouhk with it..
but still feels like **ping him..
watchout after ramadhan!!im serious!!
stories go on..bla3
and there i was at home blogging:)

till here readers..

p.s:his to0 sweet!kalah honey!!


ola readers..ouhk i made up my mind...going to school tomorrow.i miss him badly luh :D..i need to go school..missed out quiet alot of things.guess wad..im practising my math hehe:)can't wait for school...yayness!!

note to that bitch:stop your nonsensical.have you had enuf guys around you?you want more..call me..im sure none will be interested in you slut!

p.s:still fucked up!


i really really miss them:'(i want them back.i didnt go to school again cause i was really upset with both of them.if i go to school my emotion will distract me.i don't want it to happen.thats why i prefer staying at home.Being a paranoid is really difficult for you people to understand.idk..i get so pissed easily.tmr im not coming again..unless theres a superhero who turns up and save my day..fyi..i wanna gave him up to her..cause i noe i don't deserve him..people are always unhappy to see me n him being so close..the best way is to leave him for good.i noe i shouldn't care what people think,but it had been ages for me to tolerate all this crap!why don't you people get a freaking life and stop being such an A.S!!that can make you guys be a famous paparazzi!!im really2 sorry for not attending school.i can't bear looking at girls flirting with him infront of me.what's your motive girls??and that particular someone..you wanna be the next actress for desperate housewives??i can recommend you..life really sucks when people like you guys/girls exist!!how i wish i can bury all of you alive!!hahahahaha(evil laugh)..well..now im rotting in my room feeling hungry and thirsty..i slack more than i study..come on N level is not over yet!!can somebody push me down from a 11th story hdb flat..i look like a major loser at home..i can't bearly complain my probs at home..azmi is M.I.A...ouhk uh not really but his been busy lately for some unimportant reasons..azri??well lets not talk about him..grr!!better get my art done..left a few sketches and colouring..and im done:)see i can do without his help..

till here readers

p.s:fuck you people who have negative thoughts about me!!hell is your place!!


i was absent from school again.reasons are i slept late last nite at 3 am:)it wasnt on purpose.need to do my art grr!!if i go to school all i did was self-study.its quiet boring.science and math paper are drawing nearer.im not well prepared yet.i got to finish up my art by this thursdae so i can have more time revising for N.next week gonna be busy people:)don't get too anxious aites.i have to slot in a time to go out with zana..as i promised her..looking forward to it..well as for my hunnies..azmi n azri..well we're going out this saturday..off to geylang bazaar..whee:D..breaking fast at my place..yay!!i definitely buy kebab:)craving it for almost a month:)



note to azmi:dear mimi,don't worry..azri and i will sponsor you ur baju kurung..



note to azri:looks like hulk is getting greener:)still not ouhk with you yet tau..watch out after ramadan:)



note to hanisah:welcome back to group!



note to you noe hu ue are:can't wait after n level n jalan raya!!



hahahaha..you peeps are so hilarious..

till here readers..

p.s:gimme one more chance please.


The first person to tag/pass you is?- salimin:P

Your relationship with him/her?-my good buddy:)

Your five impression of him/her?- joker,sense of humour,funny,insane,emo

The most memorable thing he had done for you?- shout at geylang bazaar=x

The most memorable thing he had said to you?-i love choir!

If he become your lover, you will...?- laugh:D

things he has to improve on will be?- rebond his hair:O

If he become your enemy, you will...?- saddened till eternity

.If he become your enemy, the reason will be?- misunderstanding

The most desired thing you want to do for him now is?- throw him a bdae party:)

How you think people around you will feel about you?- ouh crap..they hate me for heaven sake!

The characteristics you love about yourself are?- a good planner:]

The most ideal person you want to be like is?- being myself

For people that care and like you, say something to them?-ily peeps!

Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wished to know how they feel about you.- Huh.

.1.azmi
2. azri
3. syiqah
4. alifah
5.dhiah
6. hafsah
7. nabil
8. salimin
9. faris
10. jannah

Who is No. 6 (hafsah) having relationship with? - Friends

Is No. 9 (faris) a male or female? - male

If No. 7 (nabil) and 10 (jannah) are together, will it be a good thing? - they don't know each other.

What is No. 2 (Azri) studying about?- achitecture

When was the last time you had a chat with No. 3 (syiqah)? - yesterday

What kind of music band does No. 8 (salimin) like? - ting tings..maeb:)

Will you woo No. 3 (syiqah)? - erms nope.

How about No. 7 (nabil)? - maeb:)

Is No. 4 (alifah) single? - nope.attached

What is the surname of No. 5 (dhiah)? -no sir name

What's the hobby of No. 10 (jannah)? - grocery shopping

Does No. 5 (dhiah) and 9 (faris) get along well? -yup.very well

Where is No. 2 (Azri) studying at?-ccss

Say something casual about No. 1 (azmi). - hilarious

Have you tried developing feelings for No. 6 (hafsah)? - haha..not a lesbian u noe..

Where does No. 9 (faris) live at? - marine crescent

What colour does No. 4 (alifah) like? - blue!

Are No. 5 (dhiah) and 1 (azmi) best friends? - haha..good friends

Does No. 1 (azmi) have any pets? - nope

Is No. 7 (nabil) the sexiest person in the world? - hahaha..more to adorable

What is No. 6 (hafsah) doing now? - in school studying


had another quarrel again with MUHD AZRI!thnks alot!another good day ruin by people like you.can't i be happy for at least 24/7.i need a piece of my mind you noe..gimme a beak azri.why do ue have to always spoil my mood..u have to understand my temper.remember PARANOID PERSONALITY DISORDER?still don't get it?go n do some research uh..im so pissed again..not once but more than twice u did this to me..i always give in to ue..wad am i?a gentlelady..ue are always being unfair towards me!!!URGH!!can both of us start to grow up please!!we are behaving like kindergarden kiddies..maeb im just too angry thats why i say those out:@.

p.s:azri please i dn't want to lose ue again just because of our misunderstanding.can't afford to let out my tears again cause its all dried up..
(if any of azri's fren is reading this and you wanna tell him.pls do so thnk kew!im not afraid.im being honest)

till here..



bla3..so not in the mood..
p.s:if only my dreams were real..



size of my palm:P
nameless...



my lifesaver.muhd azri:)
rusy,ifah,mimi,billy n faris.feat.food
my two darlings..ACUBE
what with our eyes?
the babes..

i look evil:D..dhiah n syiq.
streets of geylang..under the lights..
smile people:)i was looking at my hand.